In short.

I’m love phobic – Its a very comfortable choice I adopt.

Saw some “eye candy” – and felt compelled to make a “suggestive” comment on a facebook status.  Much to my horror, this “random” person, is an acquaintance of my partner.  They know each other.

I was perfectly okay, until I thought this could be a problem, for a litany of reasons.

I didn’t sleep well last night.  This is a real pain in the ass.

My major issue today, is mainly realizing its human and also school girl type crushes are fine.  Unfortunately, because I really don’t want to go down this “love” wagon – worst case scenario – I have sent an email to a friend explaining what a wanker this guy is.

I have no idea if this will work.  But luckily – with a mental health history as long as my arm…my best self preserving line…if our paths will cross will be…

“Hello, I have schizophrenia and I’m X’s wife”

I reckon that’ll work.  Life a real stupid bitch at times.  I mean, like he’ll go for me anyhow.  Whatta waste of energy this is…I’m beat.

Whatta headfuck – a libido does not grant the best advice for life.